Kiss me till the sun came so warm, Hug me till the moonlight showed how the beautiful night, and Loving me till our light fade by age

Fear of Losing

Pernah ngerasa sayang atau terlalu memiliki sesuatu? itu yang gue alamin sekarang. Bahagia, banget malah tapi disaat itu juga yang namanya takut “sesuatu” itu pergi suatu saat nanti muncul. Berharap semuanya berjalan kaya apa yang kita mau, tapi itu sangat nggak mungkin. kekosongan sosok  yang lama dirasa, tiba - tiba keisi dengan full dan nutup sisi - sisi kosong lain dari bagian itu sendiri. Dia bisa jadi sosok ayah, ibu, kakak, orang yang disayang, sahabat, semuanya yang ada menarik banget. Fear of losing, hmm itu yang lagi gue alamin. Dia berarti, punya peran penting, “no one can do this like him do” simpelnya gitu. Mana ada sih yang mau kehilangan sesuatu yg berharga, begitu juga gue. Ketika perasaan itu muncul terlalu jauh, fear of losing itu pun muncul. Everything’s allright, but I’m never wanna let you go. I promise :)

Dealing with my past? erwwwh i don’t think so. Guys, i wanna share my story with you. Maybe it’s not a happy ending, but i believe God always hear my praying. Sometimes, I can be tough but somehow I’m thinking what should do I with my life? he broke my life into pieces, he do it over and over again. No no no, if you think he’s my boyfriend? not him. But, after all from this situation, we can reach positive side . There’s you can be survive with your life, independent, you have a high motivation to realize your dream.

I MISS MY LONG HAIR AAAAAA…..

I love you, I really do dear. can you hear it? ya, I’m your girl, I wanna grow old with you. we made this perfect, we marry, we had two children, a little family. ah dear, do you feel the same with me? I think ya :)

you treated me perfectly, you show me how to be a woman. you teached me how to make everything so easier when life’s getting complex.

 And I’m so thankful God, you give me your angel :)